The Line Begins To Blur

Now these lyrics have so big meaning for me... When you are addicted to self-hatred, it's so nice to really realize things how they really are...

There are things that I said I would never do
There are fears that I cannot believe have come true
For my soul is too sick and too little and too late
And myself I have grown too weary to hate

The more I stay in here
The more it's not so clear
The more I stay in here
The more I disappear
As far as I have gone
I knew what side I'm on
But now I'm not so sure
The line begins to blur

Is somebody on top of me?
I don't know, I don't know
Isn't anyone stopping me?
I don't know, I don't know
Well I'm trying to hold my breath
I don't know, I don't know
Just how far down can I go?
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know

As I lie here and stare
The fabric starts to tear
It's far beyond repair
And I don't really care
As far as I have gone
I knew what side I'm on
But now I'm not so sure
The line begins to blur